Cloudy Skies and Rain

I frown on dewy mirror

 hazy

 and reflecting my own

  ugly contorted image



Dark day black day

 as I walk out

  and drench myself


Where tears

 disappear

  in the falling rain



--andoy, 25 April 1989

Room, Rooming, Roomed

Figure
Figures
Fig-
 
  ures
    naked in the dust
Dust covered
 
            bodies
   
naked out of lust
Dawn
Dawn
    dawning
light
    fleeing
         
    aflight
Towards
    dusk
and
the dank smell of musk

The dark
    covers
them
cowerign cowards
Refuge
Refugee
   
from day's
    forsaken womb
Tandem
   
groping in nether light
Lamp
    Lamp and its
broken night

Lover's flagon
    dragon-seed
of doom
Caress
Caresses
    the need of the
moon-
         lit cavern
Whence
come
    Love's tender swoon
Comuppance
 
  of kisses exchanged
Hands
Hands
Hand-
 
  some couple
    communing
With
all-encompassing hunger
Driving forth
   
forthwith withdrawn
    machine-like
thrusts
Lance-
    and rapier-like
   
     lunge

Sounds
   
soundless gasps
Breathing
    breathe's
breadth
    parting
    panting after
it
Sounds
    echo and echo
   
with nonesuch
Sounds
    of love
   
     and lust
Echo
Echoing
   
deafening in the silence
of their lovemaking
   
     cast

Soft
Soft-
   
ly speaking bodies
Tongues of fire
    dancing
 
       whirling
A wind
   
winded

Tensed
Supple
Supple-
   
menting one another's
Rhythmic
       
 pendulum
of softness
       
 tensing
Tensed
    receiving from
tension
Bearing noises up high

Up
Up
Up-
 
  on an aerie
           
       they swoop
       
                down
 
            and down-
   
and down-
               
   wards
    they descend
   
     plummeting
       
 surrendering
       
 neverending
Dance
Dances
Danc-
   
ing primitive dances
Thin-
Thinking
   
primitive thoughts

Tear
Tear
Tear-
   
ing to wear
The spring
    winds
   
     down
A breeze
   
flutters
Manageable momentum
    atop an
 
       eagle's nest
Within
   
the earth's
    bosom and breast

The head
 
       falls
       
 and necks
         graceful
swan's necks
Converge
         to
meet
Lips
         and tongues
 
       upon mouth and teeth

Dizzy
 
  dizzy
         dizzy-
 
            ingly
Dazzled

--andoy, 5 December 1983

There Was A Girl Whose Eyes I Saw

One
night was I was walking
    I saw a pair of
eyes
Dark Orbs
    suspended in life
   
timeless
And deep
Far looking deep
Flickering like a
candle

Speaking unknown words
Undecipherable of
meaning
    It held
    and kept
 
  and locked
Me away
Transporting me far
   
to where I have always been
But near to where
   
I should have hope to ever be
It closed
   
turned to look elsewhere
I turned
    and closed
to look somewhere
    anywhere but the prison I'm
held to

By dark orbs
Speaking something captivating
 
  yet I don't fully understand

--andoy, 22 August 1985

Gandalf

I first heard of Gandalf during the summer term after my first year. My friend Glenn narrated the story of the "Lord of the Rings" and the "Silmarillion" one evening while we were sitting in the field in front of Men's Dorm.

After that, I borrowed "The Lord of the Rings" from the library, and kept on borrowing it and re-reading the novel. When Unwin re-released the book, I was able to buy my own copy of the novel. Sad to say, the Unwin copies I owned got lost because some friends borrowed and did not return them. There was one volume, though, Volume III Return of the King, which another friend borrowed and replaced with a different (not Unwin) reprinting. That particular volume, I still have with me. And it has two bookmarkers: a bus ticket to Los Banos, and a Summer 1981 Registration Form (also called Form 5).

--andoy
30 December 2004

Baker Hall III (Marlo's Graduation Swim)

My friend Marlo was several years ahead of me. When he was finally confirmed for graduation, he celebrated with his friends and org-mates at one of the drinking places just outside the campus. They walked home to their respective dorms around midnight and while passing by the Administration building there was some jostling near the fountains forcing Marlo into the water. Since most of them were already wet, they decided to have a swim at Baker Hall.

Since it was April, it was quite warm, and his clothes were wet, he walked to the dorm in his briefs carrying his wet clothes. It just so happened that the guard on duty was Aleli. It was 2:00 in the morning, Marlo was dripping wet, walking to the dorm in his shorts and the lady guard was on duty. Pity I wasn't there to see that. That would have been fun.

Who cares? Marlo was out of there. And Aleli was a good sport. You wouldn't want to tangle with her though.

--andoy

Walking Around The Oval II

There was one instance when there was a typhoon which hit the country. It was already Signal No. 3 and there were still classes because somebody forgot to tell the students and teachers. Anyway, the students were just living within the campus so there was no need to tell them that classes were suspended. After the suspension of classes was confirmed, there were no jeeps plying the campus anyway so everyone had to walk. There were no jeeps because there were no passengers to begin with, and there were trees which have already fallen and blocked the streets.

Having nothing to do, me and my friends walked around the oval just for the heck of it. It was not everyday that you were walking around campus in the middle of a storm, with branches falling from trees to the streets and sidewalks. Cheap thrills, really.

After 20 years, I don't remember what we discussed. I do know that one of those I was perambulating with was Rach. It was a crazy afternoon, we were all wet, the dorms had no running water, and no electricity on campus. She was taunting me because even if she was wearing a jacket, her t-shirt was drenched. She would open her jacket and show her wet t-shirt, "Andoy, look."

After 20 years, I forget if I did look or not. I guess I did not, because if I did I would have remembered.

--andoy

Walking Around The Oval (Part I)

The oval is the large block of land fronting the Men's Dorm and Women's Dorm. Around the oval are other dorms, Baker's Hall, the Student Union and the Auditorium. For all intents and purposes, it is an empty piece of land, principally used as the February Fair grounds and for the Graduation Ceremonies. On one end, it has a football pitch, a softball diamond AND a baseball diamond.

A great promenade place to walk around in as well as for jogging. Roughly around 800 meters around, joggers go around it almost in all hours. I've even had the opportunity to run around it at midnight with some friends. The only problem about the oval is that it not a tree-lined or shaded block. Maybe when the trees grow tall enough.

Most times though, this is where we walk and talk. Maybe two or three times around the block and me and my friends would find a place to sit down, maybe near the middle of the block, and continue talking for hours. One of my friends narrated to me the Silmarilion, while we were under the stars, sitting on the field. Couples normally just sit there on the field, staking out a portion of land as witness to sweet nothings.

--andoy, 5 December 2004